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"Please don't do it, Dan. Please! I'm begging you!" Phil shouts into my ear. But I'm deaf, for now.
The cold air is pushing my hair back from my face, and I feel refreshed. But I'm not changing my mind.
I thought that when I got up here, I would get scared and listen to Phil's advice. I usually pay attention to him, but this is my choice. Yes, he'll be affected, obviously, but I just don't care anymore.
"Dan, please! You don't know how much you mean to everyone. You'll be missed so much! I'll miss you!" Phil's voice is cracking from the shouting. I keep staring straight ahead, but I can see his face close to my ear. I look down at the suburban landscape before me, and my loathing of it continues. I've always hated living here, and I've never known the reason.
The sky is dark, and barely any lights are on in the houses around me. It's nearing dawn, and the horizon is turning violet.
"Dan! Dan, I don't know what to do! How can I get you to listen?!"
I turn to face the apparition, and look into his shining eyes. "Phil. You're just a part of my mind, the stupid part. I love you, but you're so ignorant. You never see this part of me, and you'll never understand it. I have nothing else to do. I'm sick of everything, nothing is worth it," I say, turning back to the space before me. I take another step forward.
"Dan," Phil wraps his arms round me, "please hold on. Do you not remember all the times we spent together? You were happy then. These are just the ups and downs of living life, you've got to accept that. Please. I need you so much, and I know you need me too. Just stay with me for one more night, because it's always darkest before the light. If you go, I will too. Stay with me, please?"
As I tip my body forward, I think, this world needs one less heart to break.
As the cracks in my personality deepen, I let myself listen to him. If Phil left me, I'd just be an empty shell with no purpose. I felt like that a moment ago, but I remember the times we spent together. All those conversations where he's cheered me up, and those times where I'd just talk at him, and he'd hug me and listen. If Phil wasn't here, I'd be dead already, long ago.
He didn't try to pull me back, I notice. When my body fell forward, he clung closer. He would have fallen with me, I think.
I pull my body back onto the concrete ledge, and away from escape. Why would I want to leave Phil?
I connect my brown eyes to his blue ones and say, "stay with me, forever."
"I promise you, I'll never turn away. Just never leave me like that again," he replies. I nod, close my eyes, and press my forehead down against his.
The sun breaks through the even skyline, and shines on me; the boy stood on a building, with his head tilted down. He's having a conversation, but with himself.
The cold air is pushing my hair back from my face, and I feel refreshed. But I'm not changing my mind.
I thought that when I got up here, I would get scared and listen to Phil's advice. I usually pay attention to him, but this is my choice. Yes, he'll be affected, obviously, but I just don't care anymore.
"Dan, please! You don't know how much you mean to everyone. You'll be missed so much! I'll miss you!" Phil's voice is cracking from the shouting. I keep staring straight ahead, but I can see his face close to my ear. I look down at the suburban landscape before me, and my loathing of it continues. I've always hated living here, and I've never known the reason.
The sky is dark, and barely any lights are on in the houses around me. It's nearing dawn, and the horizon is turning violet.
"Dan! Dan, I don't know what to do! How can I get you to listen?!"
I turn to face the apparition, and look into his shining eyes. "Phil. You're just a part of my mind, the stupid part. I love you, but you're so ignorant. You never see this part of me, and you'll never understand it. I have nothing else to do. I'm sick of everything, nothing is worth it," I say, turning back to the space before me. I take another step forward.
"Dan," Phil wraps his arms round me, "please hold on. Do you not remember all the times we spent together? You were happy then. These are just the ups and downs of living life, you've got to accept that. Please. I need you so much, and I know you need me too. Just stay with me for one more night, because it's always darkest before the light. If you go, I will too. Stay with me, please?"
As I tip my body forward, I think, this world needs one less heart to break.
As the cracks in my personality deepen, I let myself listen to him. If Phil left me, I'd just be an empty shell with no purpose. I felt like that a moment ago, but I remember the times we spent together. All those conversations where he's cheered me up, and those times where I'd just talk at him, and he'd hug me and listen. If Phil wasn't here, I'd be dead already, long ago.
He didn't try to pull me back, I notice. When my body fell forward, he clung closer. He would have fallen with me, I think.
I pull my body back onto the concrete ledge, and away from escape. Why would I want to leave Phil?
I connect my brown eyes to his blue ones and say, "stay with me, forever."
"I promise you, I'll never turn away. Just never leave me like that again," he replies. I nod, close my eyes, and press my forehead down against his.
The sun breaks through the even skyline, and shines on me; the boy stood on a building, with his head tilted down. He's having a conversation, but with himself.
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Useless Messages ~Phan~
May 3, 2014(2:10pm) Dan Howell: Phil where are you I'm hungry
(2:15pm) Phil Lester: Shush I'm almost home
(2:15pm) Dan Howell: How long does it take to pick up penis?!
(2:16pm) Dan Howell: *pizza
(2:16pm) Dan Howell: Pretend that didn't happen
(2:17pm) Phil Lester: We all know what you really want Dan
(2:18pm) Dan Howell: Shut up Phil
(2:18pm) Phil Lester: Haha, I'll be home soon
(2:20pm) Dan Howell: GOOD
(2:50pm) Dan Howell: Phil seriously where are you
(3:15pm) Dan Howell: Dude you haven't answered my calls I'm getting worried
(3:40pm) Dan Howell: Is...is that you?
(3:41pm) Dan Howell: PHIL YOU'RE ON THE FUCKING NEWS
(3:41pm) Dan Howel
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Drinking -Phan-
Phil was asleep on the sofa, curled up and pressed against the back of it. It was 3 am, and he'd been waiting for Dan, his boyfriend, to get home for well over four hours. He jumped slightly when he heard the door unlock, Dan staggering inside, almost loosing his footing. Phil could tell the was drunk. Immensely drunk. He shut his eyes tightly, trying to make it seem like he was still asleep. He really didn't want to talk to Dan. Not when he was intoxicated. Dan had promised Phil he wouldn't drink anymore, for it was getting to be a problem. Videos late, sometimes even abusive to Phil, but Phil had stuck around through that. He buried his fac
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Love Language -Phan Fluff
Title: Love Language -Phan Fluff
Author: Strawcherr
Pairing: Amazingphil/Danisnotonfire
Genre: Fluff
Rating: General
Author's Note: This was based on the video 'Love Language'.
Point Of View: Third Person
We locate us in a monotone autumn day in England, London. A light breeze was flowing through the branches of the oak trees, making the leaves shiver. But it was a soft breeze. It was a soft rustle through the leaves, almost like nature's murmuring.
Sitting on a bench, right beneath it, was a young man. He had hair black as the night; and eyes blue as the reflection of a shimmering lake in the afternoon. He had his earphones in, and while sa
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ok, i know now, "phan angst" it's not apreciated when you try to stay happy ;____;
(sorry the bad english, i'm chilean, but this, is gold ;u
ok, i know now, "phan angst" it's not apreciated when you try to stay happy ;____;
(sorry the bad english, i'm chilean, but this, is gold ;u